About learning how to really love somebody...

I was gonna get a little personal...

I usually don't do that without wrapping it in a poem.

I found this song today when I was randomly listening to Spotify.
It just went straight into my heart because it was about something I've felt.
And it showed one of the things that I feel is part of really really loving someone.

It was about saying goodbye to someone who left in the pursuit of a better life.
And even if it hurts, you hold back your tears because you don't want to be the reason your friend stays.

I hope I will never think that I'm done learning what it means to really love someone.
That I'll always understand that it's a lifelong learning whether you're alone or with that special someone.

I don't know if I actually know what I mean.
But a while ago I said goodbye to someone I think I may have liked more than anyone else ever, in a different way than before

I let this person go. I actually said: "I forbid you to come back". Simply because I wanted more for that person than being here. Not that there's anything wrong with being here, but I knew this person had different dreams.

So I didn't cry.
Not on the outside.
Inside I cry a little every day cuz I wanted this person to stay.

But I knew that the biggest and best thing I could do was to ask this person to go find the best life has to offer.

I have never before felt so strongly that I wished something for someone so unselfishly.
Out of pure love.

So even if I shed a tear every now and then I'm proud of myself because I could wish someone the best even if that meant it wasn't what felt best for me.
That's love to me.

Or part of love at least.
I hope I'll never think I know it all.

The song was Farewell by Rihanna